My doctor would tell me as I came to him with symptom after
symptom, “This is all stress related.
You have to give up something or your body will make you give it all up
someday.” I would always smile, make
some flippant remark, thank him for his advice and the prescription and walk out the door without a thought to heeding a single word he said. I couldn’t…that would be admitted failure…”a
shortcoming” and it would crush me for sure.
And then God sank me.
I guess you could say that the iceberg I hit was the biggest one you
could hit…the “God one” but in my everyday living it was seemingly
insignificant. Like a listing ship
taking on water, the tipping point was reached, and I went DOWN.
I wouldn’t wish that experience on anyone…and yet…that
sinking moment was my first gasping breath back to life. It did not feel like life...it felt like death. In reality a fatal blow was given that day to my “addiction to measurable
productivity” and the adulation of others. Praise God! When you finally see your weakness, your irreparable brokenness, there is nothing you can do but sink. And sink I did into an inky blackness where no one could go except the One who is the Light and the Way. What I found out was...He was already there just as Psalm 139 said He would be! Slowly but surely, He "lifted me up" like David describes in Psalm 40: 1-3:
"I waited patiently for the Lord; He turned and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire;
He set my feet upon a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord."
You see? Sink into finally knowing that HE IS GOD and He will lift you up giving you new art to do...new glory to give:)
So why do I tell you my story? Simply this…sink yourself. Decide to sink into His story for your life…sink into His compassion for others…sink into His love for the lost…His compassion for the hurting, the heartbroken and the grief-stricken…sink into His ability to throw off bitterness and show undeserved forgiveness.
So why do I tell you my story? Simply this…sink yourself. Decide to sink into His story for your life…sink into His compassion for others…sink into His love for the lost…His compassion for the hurting, the heartbroken and the grief-stricken…sink into His ability to throw off bitterness and show undeserved forgiveness.
I listened to my pastor, David Parker, talk about the
“culture of Jesus” recently. As I
listened to him, I thought about the “art” in the life of Jesus while he walked
this earth. Though he was a carpenter,
probably the best that ever laid tools to wood, no relic remains of his
workmanship. What does live on is how he
interacted with people:
His truly unconditional love, His compassion, His acceptance, His forgiveness,
His ability to impart value, His example to us of how to live art in our daily
lives during this brief “breath” we are given.
When I look at my sweet Savior’s life, when I read His Word,
I can see clearly the way I ought to behave and react, but I am an imperfect,
human imitator of this
Divine Life. I am a
messy thing. I am a child copying Van
Gogh’s Starry Night. My canvas has the hint of the master’s, but
the strokes are sometimes hesitant, too much paint or not enough or at times not even the right color. Sometimes my frustrations rise and the canvas
gets tossed aside. Emily puts like this...we go to wash someone's feet like Jesus did and we spill the water or turn up our noses at smelly feet. We are imperfect imitators of the art we see in the life of Jesus.
“Be still…sink…and
know that I am God.” These beautiful,
dropping to the knees, “I cannot do it” moments, these are the sinking
times. The sinking into knowing that
even though I cannot forgive in my own humanness…I cannot love fully…accept
unconditionally…live “a million little ways” consistently or perfectly…that God
can and He can change a heart like mine to be more like His perfect one.
Let's keep sinking, my friends, into the safe and loving presence
of a Savior who will bring His art into our lives in more ways than we ever
imagined!
Love to you, dear friends!
Cherri
Love to you, dear friends!
Cherri